calm me down

~ hurm.. hi blog..sorry late to post here... seriously.. i feel so lonely r8 now.. something dat i expected before..its happening... n will go step by step...

~ ah. xbes gila perasaan aku skunk ni... tetiba jadi frust.. fucking down..u noe... huh..

~ so badly.. i feel it.. apa yang aku harapkan selalu terkandas... apa yang aku jangka sedang berlaku... sama seperti sebelumnya.. mmg perjalanan idup aku cmni kowt..hehehe..

~ apa yang aku rasa myb berkait dengan perasaan aku.. its touched my heart.. deep inside..damn..

~ fall in love wif someone..really killing me...serious shit.. but i dun want to blaming my heart.. cuz dis feel come suddenly.. n now i feel it..

~ aku cuba buang apa yang aku rasa skunk.. tapi x bole! sebab apa? sebab aku tau aku xlayak tuk semua ni... bole memang bole.. tapi sementara je la.. :) nk jadi bahagia cm member lain.. thats not me ler... sekejap je bertahan.. nanti mesti akan berlalu pergi..

~ tapi aku nak gak rasa kebahagiaan selamanya.. ada mr right... stick pada yang sorang je.. focus on him only.. no other man.. but what happened.. i ve tried.. n now i think dat my trying will fail..

~ haha.. sebab tu aku xnk taruh harapan tinggi ttg love ni... mmg x dinafikan prasaan tu dtg sendiri.. aku mmg kena hadapi prasaan aku.. tapi smpai bila... makin seksa kowt...haha..

~ sometimes i laugh myself bcoz of my badness of heart... n sometimes gk i wanna kill my heart... let no man touch it.. once he touch my heart... it will make me hurt..dats it..

~ for now.. i feel dat i love him.. always think bout him.. even sleep, eat, hangout wif frens.. class.. or wherever dat i go..he s always in my mind..dunno why..but i guess dis s love.. i cant stop it.. n i love de way dat i think bout him..

~ n please dura!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun syok sendiri.. arghhhhhhhh... n aku tau.. he myb dun luv me.. n he juz consider me as his fren.. nevermind blog.. i dun mind.. dat guy has his r8 to choose some1 special for him.. n i noe.. she s not me but her!... << (i dunno who..)

~ ah... im lost in love... always love..myb till de end i ve to facing dis world like dis.. no happy ending...

~ dan sebabkan cinta ni la..buat aku putus asa... n selalu terpesong pada lesbian life.. huh... tapi aku cuba elakkan diri aku dari terjerumus kembali pada dunia tu... sebab tu .. i need some1 dat can make me happy...cheerful.. sharing problem together.. sharing stories together.. hard fun together.. long distance its ok.. as long as.. our soul are unite..

~ n 1 more thing... frens.. close frens also will make me feel so down n miserable..many times i try to ask some helps.. they will gimme some reasons to.. whereas they can do it.. but nvm.. fren is fren.. i ve to noe.. n understand wats de meaning of fren.. but i think dis s not fair.. cuz i always try my bes to fulfil their hopes... i juz wan they appreciate it.. not more than that.. but remember DURA!!! fren is fren.. n now im fucking sad babe! so hard to think bout dis rotational life... n i noe dat a circle shape.. wherever u go.. whoever u choose.. juz in de circle... cant jum down to other planet..

~ ah..makin melalut da ni.. k la.. malas nak pikir.. chau!