calm me down

~ hurm.. hi blog..sorry late to post here... seriously.. i feel so lonely r8 now.. something dat i expected before..its happening... n will go step by step...

~ ah. xbes gila perasaan aku skunk ni... tetiba jadi frust.. fucking down..u noe... huh..

~ so badly.. i feel it.. apa yang aku harapkan selalu terkandas... apa yang aku jangka sedang berlaku... sama seperti sebelumnya.. mmg perjalanan idup aku cmni kowt..hehehe..

~ apa yang aku rasa myb berkait dengan perasaan aku.. its touched my heart.. deep inside..damn..

~ fall in love wif someone..really killing me...serious shit.. but i dun want to blaming my heart.. cuz dis feel come suddenly.. n now i feel it..

~ aku cuba buang apa yang aku rasa skunk.. tapi x bole! sebab apa? sebab aku tau aku xlayak tuk semua ni... bole memang bole.. tapi sementara je la.. :) nk jadi bahagia cm member lain.. thats not me ler... sekejap je bertahan.. nanti mesti akan berlalu pergi..

~ tapi aku nak gak rasa kebahagiaan selamanya.. ada mr right... stick pada yang sorang je.. focus on him only.. no other man.. but what happened.. i ve tried.. n now i think dat my trying will fail..

~ haha.. sebab tu aku xnk taruh harapan tinggi ttg love ni... mmg x dinafikan prasaan tu dtg sendiri.. aku mmg kena hadapi prasaan aku.. tapi smpai bila... makin seksa kowt...haha..

~ sometimes i laugh myself bcoz of my badness of heart... n sometimes gk i wanna kill my heart... let no man touch it.. once he touch my heart... it will make me hurt..dats it..

~ for now.. i feel dat i love him.. always think bout him.. even sleep, eat, hangout wif frens.. class.. or wherever dat i go..he s always in my mind..dunno why..but i guess dis s love.. i cant stop it.. n i love de way dat i think bout him..

~ n please dura!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun syok sendiri.. arghhhhhhhh... n aku tau.. he myb dun luv me.. n he juz consider me as his fren.. nevermind blog.. i dun mind.. dat guy has his r8 to choose some1 special for him.. n i noe.. she s not me but her!... << (i dunno who..)

~ ah... im lost in love... always love..myb till de end i ve to facing dis world like dis.. no happy ending...

~ dan sebabkan cinta ni la..buat aku putus asa... n selalu terpesong pada lesbian life.. huh... tapi aku cuba elakkan diri aku dari terjerumus kembali pada dunia tu... sebab tu .. i need some1 dat can make me happy...cheerful.. sharing problem together.. sharing stories together.. hard fun together.. long distance its ok.. as long as.. our soul are unite..

~ n 1 more thing... frens.. close frens also will make me feel so down n miserable..many times i try to ask some helps.. they will gimme some reasons to.. whereas they can do it.. but nvm.. fren is fren.. i ve to noe.. n understand wats de meaning of fren.. but i think dis s not fair.. cuz i always try my bes to fulfil their hopes... i juz wan they appreciate it.. not more than that.. but remember DURA!!! fren is fren.. n now im fucking sad babe! so hard to think bout dis rotational life... n i noe dat a circle shape.. wherever u go.. whoever u choose.. juz in de circle... cant jum down to other planet..

~ ah..makin melalut da ni.. k la.. malas nak pikir.. chau!

Jessie J - Do It Like A Dude (Explicit)

~ seriously.. i love dis song.. love her lyric...love her style.. love her dancing.. love girlssssssss....

~ i don noe how to describe myself.. but i try.. n i noe dat she look so brave to show people how stupid they are...

~ her lyric so meaningful 4 me.. it describes about feminism life... no men no cry.. n we r gurls.. can be like them... without men...

~ i selute u jessie J.. n i noe bout ur history.. :* carry on to write lyrics more more n more !!!!!

~ i think dat she s critizing the 'dudes' who think dat they r de best juz 4 fucking bitches..ahakz...

~ she s a little crazy.. love her........i loikeeee..

Hey hey hey hey hey hey hey...
J-J-J-J-Jessie J
Stomp stomp I've arrived
Drop the beat nasty face why you looking at me
Flying flying flying flying- through the sky
In my spaceship I'm an alien tonight
Dirty dirty dirty dirty dirty dirty sucker
You think I can't get her like you you motherfucker

I can do it like a brother - do it like a dude
Grab my crotch wear my hat low like you
Do it like a brother - do it like a dude
Grab my crotch, wear my hat low like you
We can do it like the mandem mandem hey
We can do it like the mandem suga suga suga
We can do it like the mandem mandem hey
We can do it like the mandem suga suga suga

Bang bang Hey, pour me a beer
No pretty drinks, I'm a guy out here
Rollin' rollin' rollin' rollin' money like a pimp
My B I T C H is on my dick like this
Dirty dirty dirty dirty dirty dirty sucker
You think I can't get her like you you motherfucker

Boys - come say what you wanna
Boys - you need to lick my dollar
Boys - getting hot under the collar
Holla holla woah

Boys - come say what you wanna
Boys - you need to lick my dollar
Boys - getting hot under the collar
Holla holla woah

Eternal Madness

~ perghh.. layan gila musicna ... <3

~ vdeo klip bes...

kesabaran~

~ senyuman tu akan datang dengan keikhlasan kalo diizinkan oleh hati..:) aku cuba untuk senyum dan bahagia.. tapi apa yang aku rasa skarang... tetiba aku rasa sedih gila.. tapi aku cuba bersabar..

~ kesabaran tu penting bila kita sayangkan seseorang.. walau ayatnya buat aku kecik ati... tapi aku cuba bersabar.

~ maybe aku ni memang xlayak nak disayangi orang...biar la aku sayang orang secara diam.. kenapa blog..aku selalu jadi mangsa kehidupan...aku tau aku memang xlayak dihargai.

~ tapi pastinya aku hepi bila bsama dia.. n harap dia tau yang aku da betul2 syg dia.. walau sukar untuk diucap dari mulut aku... tapi diri aku memang dah terpaut dengan layanannya..

~ aku beli kibod ni semata-mata sebab dia... nak chat ngan dia..:) biar lah dia kata aku kawan ngn dia untuk keperluan aku.

~ mungkin aku ni cepat sensitif...sebab tu selalu moody..n i juz wanna sorry to u bcause all these r my fault.. i admit it... sorry again.. dats y i blame myself cuz don no how to appreciate u! sincerely. i need u dear...:) nite..

kesayuan

~ hari ni aku hepi.. sebab skrip aku diterima oleh kak Jumi.. alhamdulillah.. aku kena sambungkan lagi skrip aku...

~ dalam kesibukan aku sharian.. aku dapat rasakan macam timbul perasaan lain macam. argh.. ekceli aku xsuka perasaan ni datang.. sbb aku xpinta dan aku xlayak..

~ aku ni bukan macam orang lain.. memang aku maukan prasaan camni.. tapi aku tau semua pasti sementara...sebab tu.. skunk ni aku da takut sebab aku da tersangkut dengan perasaan ni..

~ OMG... aku sbenarnya da sukakan dia... tapi masalahnya dia tu teman aku jer.. kami xlebih daripada tu... aku xnk yang aku ni tepuk sebelah tangan je... tapi aku tau..aku sememangnya camtu.. org yang aku suka.. mesti xkan dapat balas cinta aku.. da selalu sangat aku jadi camtu..

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